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i dunsh understand y some ppl (yesh, nt. jus 1 person) make up all sorts of excuses nt. 2turn up 4meetings when i ask 'em out. i mean they cld've been real honest wif mi n put it bluntly across tt they din realli feel like going, rather dan made mi FEEL GUILTY 4nt. asking 'em out! out of 10 times of asking 'em out, nt. once did they show their pretti faces lor. if they'd genuinely like 2join the outings, their efforts made wld've shown. i feel so tiredz / fed up being the middle person, u noe!! according 2Kw, they're realli air stewardesses -- 坐飞机 = 放飞机. he suggests tt i msg bck the 1 word "areoplane" the nxt time when any kinds of lame reasons cum up. but hey, guess/noe wat?? dere isnt going 2b a nxt time, i swear!! 不要去就不要去 lah... i'm nt. going 2b a FOOL anymore / no more (by asking 'em out again / 1 more time)! anywae~ hu's going 2entertain 'em when they actualli did turn up 4the gatherings? pooh! nt. mi! i'm nt. realli tt nice a person / 我不是这么好欺负的.

2b fair, mabbe they're attempting 2b kind, declining my invitation gracefully or wateva lah...i mean i DUN hate 'em. on the contrary, i stil thnk they're gd ppl (好人s) but as like wat Br says, "dere're mani diff sides 2a person (人有很多面) mah". i feel so fake+pissed (a little) in front of / when i c 'em after tt : (

okiez, so excuses r oredi bad enuf. h/w, WAT'S WORSE IS WHEN THEY DIN EVEN BOTHER 2CUM UP WIF ANY POSSIBLE EXPLANATION @ ALL. they jus bloody hell vanished/disappeared into thin air / frm the face of the earth lidat. snap! n *pooh* they're gone!! no SMS, no call, no nuthing (kinda like trying their stupid darnest 2avoid/ignore mi...so farking irresponsible)!!! wat the hell!!!!! n i feel even more NAIVE 4worrying abt their safeties. i tot perhaps they'd gotten into accidents or even, been kidnapped!

well, i might act calm / b fine den / @ tt mo. / @ tt pt. in time (在那当下), but 我是属于那种越想越生气的人...

it jus saddens mi. i'm quite disappointed in 'em *sighz* = (

on a lighter note, i've calculated my tol exp. 4the entire mth of Jul liao~ i'd spent $410.85 in all 4the mth alone! my initial pocket $ was $200 nia~ ard 50.3% ($206.50) of my expenses were spent on clothes n shoes, n 25.0% ($102.55) on food/meals. furthermore/moreovr, i'd onli bought 1 CD during tt mth, which is considered bery gd/4tunate indeed, hehe. well...go figure! = p