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Sunday, September 19, 2004
well, dere n den @ the bbq, i've decided 2gif up on Roy. i mean he aldy has a gf, n they're veri happy 2gether, i presume. so y shld i attempt 2thnk of "po huai"ing 'em. i dun haf the slightest chance anyway. i'm pretty sure Roy luvs Jess veri much. he calls her By (short 4 baby, i thnk) n always eat her leftovers when she can't finish her food, not 2say tt she was supposed 2go 2his hse after the bbq. *i shan't xiang wai*. anyway, i dun wanna noe abt the details of their luv life anymore, it's making mi queasy inside. h/w, everytime when Roy teases mi (which he does everytime), i like the attention he gifs mi. actually, i shld b grateful 2him. he makes my presence felt. if not, i'll b like an invisible wallpp again, which nobody cares (i shldn't b bei guan). sometimes, i find myself creating things 2make him haf the opportunity 2tease mi. i'm pathetic, realli. i look fwd 2his teasings everytime when i'm in sch. if he teases mi, i'll feel veri happy 4 the entire dae. if not, i'll feel veri empty, veri void. tt dae @ the bbq, he commented on my dressings. i had tied my hair 4 the 1st time in front of 'em n worn a pink top which Grace said look like a babydoll. he said i looked diff, which made him "gua mu xiang kan". i mean compared 2most of the gals who wore t-shirts n shorts, i looked diff alright. i was SO HAPPI in my heart when he said tt, but i pretended not2. i said "wheregot" wif an indignant look on my face....haha. haiz....i'm so what rite? den another time during the bbq, as dere's music blasting frm behind, he chanted "yo yo, Jasmine Ho" which rhymes lor. i mean he was jus trying 2tease mi again, n he din realli expect it 2rhyme so much. n he jus collapsed into hysterical laughter afterwards. Lq, who was sitting bside mi, laughed 2. i din noe whether 2laugh or not. i din noe how 2position my expression. it was so damn funnie looking @ the way he laughed. but i thnk i shld b more cautious lor. i get the impression sometimes tt Jess doesn't like the attention Roy is giving me. i mean which gal wld like her bf (which i donno confirmed or not) 2 gif so much of his attention 2another gal. n esp., it's her bdae celebration tt dae lor. she shld b in the limelight. she even commented tt nobody paid much attention to Ah Neh n her tt dae. oops. suddenly, i'm so afraid of losing another fren. but den again, i may b thnking 2much again. 4all i noe, she may b "feeling sorrie" 4mi everytime Roy teases me, n i mistook tt 4 jealousy. haiz...i shldn't gao pan myself rite? i mean i shld clarify, Jess is a veri nice gal, pretty n all. she's my idol in class, i mean, in terms of her dressings n everything. she always wear veri nice n trendy clothes (which i suspect she buys frm Far East Plaza) 2class everydae, rarely repeating her clothes. sometimes i wonder, she doesn't wrk, so where does she get all dis $ 2go shopping? anyway, i shld clarify (tt she's a nice gal) less u thnk she's bad or something. even as i write dis, i feel myself falling 4Roy even more. OH NO!!! *he has a gf, he has a gf* i haf 2keep chanting in my head. i'm gifing up aldy...am i? P.S: we're not compatible. how can a Zouk boy b compatible 2a female class clown? tt only happens in storybks, dramas n movies. mabbe the reason y he teases mi so much is not cos he likes mi in tt sort of way. mabbe the gal he likes 2tease n the gal he likes 2haf as a gf n bring hm 2his family 2see is diff. mabbe he likes a more "presentable" gf. mabbe he treats mi like a little sis. mabbe. he doesn't like mi. Posted by Jasmine Ho Si Hui at |
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about me  My name: Jasmine Ho Si Hui Birth date: 7th July 1984 clock |
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